What is a word that would be similar to misogynist but towards men?

I have a hatred or dislike towards men. I use them and don't really care about them or feel like they are good for much. I started feeling like this ever since my first bf cheated on me and lied to me tried to get my bff number behind my back invited me over his house just to talk sh!t on me with one of his friends the whole time and numerous other things. I don't kno my real dad never met him. I was ually ualted before and manipulated by men several times. My father who is actually my stepfather has always been kind of closed minded and never accepting of my views religous or lifestyle. Not to mention volatile and not very compionate or caring when it comes to ppls problems. My first ever long term bf I had when I was 18 to 19 1/2 was very nice then became emotionally abusive to me we haven't been together since jan of 2010 but I did start talkin to him again over the summer and he started acting crazy again. So basically around 17 I started to really hate men. But even moreso after the abuse started. And what made it worse is that my bf's bro lived with us and wouldn't do anything to help me or say anything to my bf. He would just sit there and watch it happen. Which kinda strengthened my views that men are pieces of sh!t cuz what kinda of man sees a woman in need and does nothing to help him. So I started to treat men they way they always treated me. I would use them, talk down to them or call them names and then a few weeks later call them again and make some excuse and apologize so I could have my way with them. Idk y I do this. I can't stay faithful for anything I just feel like men can't be trusted and are dogs. What is word for these feelings and how can I help change my views? I would like to get married someday. Also there is a guy I am dating now and I would like to get serious with him we've been talking since march of 2010 off and on and idek y he puts up with me but he does. I can't be in a serious relationship in this mindset. I'm so afraid I will cheat on him and ruin things. I remember one time he told me he didn't want to have with me that night bcuz he was tired from work and I immediately thought he was lying and seeing someone else which he denied. And I just felt like so unwanted or like he didn't find me attractive it made me feel horrible so I called up a fwb and had with him that night and I didn't even feel bad about it cuz I felt like he was probably sleepin with someone else anyways and if he didn't care about me y should I care for him. I am goin to therapy right now and I haven't brought this up to my therapist yet. I just need help for now because he's coming over my place today. I would like to settle down and have a serious stable healthy relationship. I have been single a yr and I'm ready to change that. I just want to be the faithful caring gf I used to be in relationships before I was abused. Any advice would help.